Life

The past 24 hours was a whirlwind. I flew into Sacramento last night and flew back to Orange County this evening. I learned that sometimes you have to choose things. I had to choose to go home for Cindy's memorial rather than being at work on Thursday. Even when I knew my absence would inconvenience people since a sub. was never found for me, but my presence was necessary somewhere else.

It was so good to be home. To be surrounded and surround others with love. Finally I got to be with Sarah and my family. The memorial was beautiful and perfect beyond what I hazard to describe.

I left feeling so filled up with the desire to live a life of great love and genuine friendship as Cindy had. I will miss her presence in my life and in the lives of her family and my mom. You know someone has lived a pretty incredible life when you leave their memorial feeling more filled up than when you came in.

Relationships are important. Life is important. I get so caught up in routine duties like school and work that I sometimes forget life is not about those things. Success in school or in work does not equate to a successful life. Life measures itself by other standards. It is messy and inconvenient sometimes, but there are times that life just has to break in and mess up our perfect orderly routines to remind us that the point is to live. I need to make more time for life, more time for relationships especially.

My two great desires for my life are this: to love God and love others.

If I can do those two things well then I will have lived a fulfilled life beyond whatever career path or honors I may receive. Life is about relationships and community.