trying to catch my breath

I am overwhelmed.

There's no simple way to explain everything that is going on so I'll leave it at that. But in particular I am stressed because I thought I had a substitute for myself during the days I plan to be back home for the memorial, but apparently they couldn't find a sub. who was willing to do diaper changes. Sooo I'm planning on leaving Wed. night and coming back Thurs. night. I feel like just crying, but I know that won't solve anything. That isn't enough time, but I can't bring myself to leave Emma to fend for herself for 2 days especially since she is unable to transport herself, change herself, or manage her eating and drinking alone.

Lord, please bring a solution. Give us all mercy.