overdue revelation

............................then and now...........................

God is so good.... He has always been good. I'm just acknowledging it now, when I took his goodness for granted in the past.

So often I pray for things and I worry about those things. Then I get so caught up in anxiety that I miss it when God faithfully answers my prayers in a way that's better than I could have imagined.

Today starts my first class at Chapman. I wanted to attend their program so badly that I thought that I would never be accepted. Why do we expect God to withhold those things we desire? He is not only faithful, but faithfully good. And shock, he wants to give us good things (provided that all is in line with his will).

Examples of faithfulness (spring 2005-now):

-didn't get the RA position........God kept me free to pursue my academics and relationships while sparing me from an especially heinous year for residence life
-struggled to find a summer job and asked God for a job relevant to my passion........became a nanny for Jade who has down syndrome
-applied to work in the school district and fearfully made several trips down the 5 to complete the app. process.......was hired in the best position I could have asked for starting out at a good school with an adorable girl who already knew and loved
-last semester of school and I was having trouble finding a place to live.......God gave me a home that was everything I could have wanted when I was about to give up
-I started the Chapman application process with many doubts about my potential.......after lots of worry and stress I got "the" call and here I am
-continuing concerns about school.......calm after meeting with my advisor who is a kindred spirit when it comes to social justice and passion for special education
-etc.

As I look at my planning document for my coursework and see what my life will vaguely look like until I finish in 2009 or 2010, I have a sense of trepidation that is overcome by the confidence that God's faithfulness will continue in whatever the next 2-3 years have to offer.