goodbyes

So much to think about....

...I saw Carrie for the last time tonight (until she returns in late April) and it makes me sad. I hate saying goodbye. She will have an amazing time, I know, and I guess I'll just have to settle for reports and updates through email and blogs. But wow, will I miss her a hell of a lot. A year ago she was spending the new year at my house, this year she'll be in Myanmar! I love Carrie Joann Dievendorf!

...Graduation and adulthood to process

...And new things, things that make me anxious to think about....

Processing, that's what long solitary roadtrips are for, right?

Oh yeah I'll be driving Bubba back to Granite Bay tomorrow afternoon. I'm going home for the holidays full of bittersweet thoughts and a twisted stomach. But as someone much wiser than me once said, part of growth and being alone is learning that you are never really alone. Thanks Dogterom.

Now deep breath.... and go.