retreat

I went on my 6 hour spiritual retreat today. I went here:


















It's the piece of beach I have counted on since day 1 of freshman year. So many different occasions for visiting.... Anyway as I wade through what God is trying to teach me I knew that returning to this now sacred section of Newport Beach by the 6th st. lifeguard tower was the best place to spend my 6 hours. I arrived with heartache and my face cast low. But in the face of God every anxiety and fear seems to dissipate sometimes. The lies and insecurities that we hold near and dear may be comfortable, but they are soul killing. He wants to go deeper than the surface, deeper than sin. He wants to speak to the core of who we are, and in his perfect communion his heart speaks to our heart. He wants to tell us the truth about himself and the truth about who we are. Why does the truth scare us so much? Why do we want to hold onto a lie that seeks to kill us?

After watching a perfect sunset glow in brilliant colors, a school of dolphins slowly pass the shore, children jumping in the waves, feeling small and still in the dark dark night, and hearing the neverending love song of waves crashing I am left with his words...

This is how I love you little one.