rain check??

Hi friend,

I wanted to write you a note as a preemptive measure protecting our friendship. For the next semester... next few years... maybe.... I will not be a very good friend. Just today I declared that my greatest passion in life is relationships (with God, family, friends, etc.), yet I am choosing to devote so much time and energy into my career pursuits that I will be jeopardizing all those relationships.

So let me apologize in advance for the times when I don't call you back, when I don't see you often, when you feel like you aren't important to me, when I hope that when I leave you a voicemail that you are too busy to hang out, when I'm not being present.... Just tonight I called a friend I had scheduled to have yogurt with. I left her a message and am hoping that she has to rain check because I don't want to leave the house again after 6 hrs at work, 3 hrs at school, and approx. 1 hr driving. Pretty horrible of me, I know.

Just know that I still care about you and love you even if I seem distant or absent. I will manipulate my schedule as much as possible and try my best to make sure I nurture our friendship. I don't want to finish this program and find that my once flourishing "garden" of relationships has decayed due to lack of attention. (Oh i love obvious analogies!)

And if things do get out of hand I have trouble seeing it, so let me know. Really. Also, since I need to devote large chunks of time to homework and studies, I would love to study or read with you if you are in the mood.

Don't expect too much of me, but still expect me to be your friend whatever that will look like. I'm sorry that I'll probably disappoint you.

love your friend,

Jenny