no more thanks.

Thankfully I haven't had a day like today in a very long time.

I left work a zombie sucked dry of any real energy and running on reserve. After two days of having an overwhelming amount of kids in my after-school class due to one teacher who moved to Hawaii and one who's out sick, I feel completely wiped out. (Remember that I want to be a special education teacher for students with moderate to severe disabilities so I will have a max. of around 10 students) Add to that the pressure I feel to meet expectations in my relationships and writing my graduate school statement of intent...

I wrote most of it on Saturday and stayed up until 1am last night to finish it. I was pretty proud of myself that I finally did something I had put off for.... I don't know... the past 8 months. Procrastination is an understatement. As relieved as I was to have finished it, I vainly hoped that I wouldn't need to change it after friends and family edited it.

After a day as ridiculous as this one my family called and my parents both took turns telling me what was wrong with my paper and my writing. I believe they said something to the effect of it was not college-level writing. That made me feel really special. I guess the past few months post graduating only writing emails and blogs didn't do much to keep up the standard of my academic writing. (If anyone wants extra reading you can have a chance to rip it apart as well)

Anyway I appreciate the criticism because I want to send in an amazing statement, but it was just too much after today.

So now I'm trying to catch my breath and I'm reminded of the words "Mama said there'll be days like this, there'll be days like this mama said..."